the problem lies with me

I know it's my fault.
I know it.
I've got a bloody problem with anyone and just won't stop bearing grudges.
I know I'm a bitch.
Don't have to say anything else.
Things have been happening really fast today.
Everything was so happy, so cheerful.
Then it all went downhill.
Sometimes I don't know what I am thinking.
I wish I would just cut that crap and shut up for a moment.
I don't mind if everyone hates me cos they should.
They really should.

Lix, I love you. Thanks for lending me a listening ear every time I needed one. Thanks for being there for me although you have every reason to detest me. I don't know how much I owe you, seriously. I love you like hell I tell you.

Mong, we'll pull through. We will. I don't know how but we will. I'm going to stop it. We'll see how when we talk.

Lou, don't be worried about getting transferred to sop! You will stay an alto ALWAYS. We won't abandon you. Once an alto, always an alto. We will still love you. :)

i'm sorry that i hurt you
it's something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears

I've never found lyrics that tally so much with what I'm feeling right now.