Wednesday, November 24, 2004

disintegrated ever since

Feeling pretty negative now.

I'm a lousy daughter. Dad called not long ago, he asked me what I bought for mum and I just went "nothing." I mean he gave me 50 bucks to buy a present for her on like sunday and yet I didn't. She spent her entire day shopping alone. She prollie applied for leave to spend the day with me or something but I had to go to SCHOOL. The other child was being a complete asshole and I doubt he even wished her. No cake, no nothing? And you call that a bloody birthday. Like how unfilial can I get.

And from the stuff I'm hearing, she sounds like a complete bitch to me. Can't she just be nicer for once? It isn't the first time I'm sure. Oh what the heck this doesn't concern me so I might as well shut up and mind my own business. I shouldn't have gotten involved in the first place. Will you just STOP TALKING TO ME. How half-hearted. If you knew what's going on you'd probably leave me alone too anyway. But since you expect me to be here for you I shall. It's going to be hard but I WILL be. It's a responsibility I have to take. I won't run away. Cos I can't.

Brothers are the lousiest, most unfeeling, most insensitive creatures on earth. Best conclusion I have made ever. And blasting music is one of the best remedies.