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THIS is a much happier, although virtual family, that I could ever dream of having.

I realise that other families actually hold celebrations for the respective people on respective parents' days. In this family, we never do.

In fact, I don't even recall any of these days spent happily as a family, together.

I've never looked forward to mothers' or fathers' day.

I don't see why this should be any different.

And while talking to lix it sudenly came to me how many times I've lied to myself and to others during the 15 years and a month I've existed. And that I don't plan to kick this habit cos I can lie perfectly well now, and it doesn't seem to affect this stone cold conscience of mine at all. (well, kind of)

No wonder the only comm I've been in is one whereby I got sabotaged into by certain people who adore sabotaging others. -______- And no wonder I was only monitor once in sec one, where a certain blobby form teacher had a warped sense of judgment, which later he conveniently discovered, and didn't elect me as anything more than a sec-one-sem-two monitor afterwhich.

This is a relatively dangerous entry. You don't need to know the reason why.

OH BLOODY INTERNET