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you
destroyed
love, friendship, passion, hope, energy
everything i regarded as important.
i think, only the strongest can survive this.

i'm surprised i'm still striving on
for myself, for the others, for him, for you.
maybe because i love it
maybe because i don't want to disappoint
maybe because i want to prove myself
not to anyone else, but to yours truly.

maybe i'm trying to piece the broken shards back together
but we all know that it's just not the same.
honestly, how does this make me different from them?
it's the same kind of feeling,
except diluted with forced enthusiasm and love.

i just hope you won't tire of it so soon.

afraid of what's coming
of what's not going to come
of pre-existing fears
of future screw-ups

after all i've said and done,
i still love you
how pathetic is that?
i know i'm your biggest mistake,
well, vice versa.

i hope this entry came off as cryptic and unfathomable.
because some things are not meant to be understood
but yet i can totally relate to some things i never thought i would agree to.

here's to you.